Tuesday, October 19, 2010

Gonna Go Learn A New Song Now...

My life has been nothing short of a complete wreck lately. I can't really explain it, it's all just a blob of drama and confusion and worry inside my head and my heart right now. But I've been so focused on everything else in life that i haven't had much chance to actually sit down and write anything on here for awhile...nothing of much worth anyway. And the few times I have had the chance, i honestly just haven't felt like it. I've been trying to find my escape in my music and my art lately, instead.

Not that I haven't had plenty to write, or several fitful, sleepless nights that I could have spent typing. But my mind has just been everywhere else. I can't seem to focus much on any one thing for more than a few minutes. Even right now, I'm clicking back and forth between four websites, attempting to learn a new song, and working on some homework. So it's taking me way longer than it should to type this. But whatever gets it done, right?

You're probably wondering why I'm on here if I don't feel like being on here. But today is different. Today all I could think about was the incredible need to blog. Which is weird, because I kept asking myself, "but about what?" and never did come up with an answer. So I decided just to sit down, start typing, and see where it leads. And here I am.

One of my favorite songs at the moment just popped up on Pandora. I'm currently in love with it for several reasons:

1 ~ It's not a love song. I'm so incredibly sick of hearing love songs and mushy gushy crap every time I decide to listen to music. Seriously, count the next 10 songs you hear -- whether it be on the radio, pandora, or from your ipod on shuffle -- and see how many of them actually AREN'T love songs.

2 ~ It describes my attitude towards life and everything and everyone in it at the moment perfectly. I love it when songs do that. Because honestly, I suck at conveying my feelings.

3 ~ It has a few really good reminders that I need to hear several times a day at this point in my life: (1) Stop getting up for the let down, (2) Who you are is not up to them, (3) You've gotta mean it when you say what you want, and (4) You're saying anything that gets you by.

4 ~ The video makes me smile =)

5 ~ I absolutely love his voice. I don't really know why. But it's different, and I like it.

So I'm slightly sorry I have nothing better to type about...but I felt like blogging, and had nothing to say, so...


  1. Glad you blogged! Sometimes it helps to just put words on paper, er, the blogosphere (weird word...). Hang in there, and remember to make some time for yourself, even if it's just a bit of silent thought as you walk to class. You're amazing, and you'll get through it!

    I love the song. Great lyrics!

    As for the 10 songs thing... Well, do "disillusioned with love" songs count? If not, I only had one love song on my shuffle. Yay! Might re-try that on my mp3 player, since it's a better representation of the songs I normally listen too. :) Yipee for procrastination!!

  2. i love you heather! just thought i'd let you know that you make me smile :)

    and go figure you're music selection would be practically free from love music, haha ;)

  3. Thanks, you too! Honestly, I don't think Windows Music Player is feeling too good... it kept picking the one song on any given cd that wasn't about romantic love.